OK, I get the fact that life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes, it is difficult to comprehend the whole situation. It seems as if the whole world should come to an end so that you can have your peace. I get the fact that the rich are getting richer by the day while the poor are getting poorer. I know it is difficult to watch your loved ones suffer for their daily bread. It is also painful not to have at least the basic things in life just like every other person out there.
I know how painful it is to see the feeds of those rich kids on social media playing with cash that could help bring your family out of poverty especially you need just 1",000$ to do something meaningful for your loved ones. Being the eldest in the family comes with a lot of responsibilities, and it is so painful not to provide for your parents when they gave up everything to get you through the university. I can understand the burden weighing you down.
I came from a very poor home so I can relate with the anger of needing something badly, but you don't even come close to having them in the next two years. I understand the situation whereby you can only dream of your needs without the hopes of having them physically. These things are enough to drive anyone insane and I get that part. Growing up was very tough for me, as I watch my parents suffer just to put food on the table for my siblings and I. At first, I was mad with the world, and I asked myself a lot of questions, but the answers weren't coming.
Sometimes, it is okay to be angry, but remember not to be too angry that you can't even control it. The thing is, we are not defined by our past, but the future. We don't need to worry about the things that we cannot control rather we should worry about the things we have control over and work on how to make it right. Yes, things aren't rosy. You weren't born with a silver spoon, but that doesn't mean you will remain that way forever. Determination is the key to self-realization. We all have the power to change a very unpleasant situation in our lives.
I know coming from a wealthy home makes it easier for anyone to stabilize in life but let's think about it; we came into this world naked without a dime. This simply means that the so-called rich homes must have had someone who worked extremely hard to build an empire. It just didn't happen out of the blues. So, you see, there is never an excuse not to be that man with a name.
No what you are passing through it is nothing compared to how precious your life is. Suicide is never an option and will never be. I know it is painful for people who are bullies to talk down on your personality, but hey, you're stronger than you think. Your life is priceless and shouldn't be taken for granted. This is me speaking to everyone who is currently going through stuff, you can get through this. You have all it takes to make a name for yourself. Don't give in to cheap blackmails by those who feel threatened by you. Believe me when I say there is someone somewhere hoping to have what you have no matter how little. So, be happy and be strong! Be brave and be courageous!