A hobby is an activity done regularly in one’s free time for pleasure. I never actually thought I had a hobby until I was assigned this essay, it really made me think about what I like to do in my free time. I always thought that a hobby was a sport you played after school or paintings with hundreds of numbers on them that forced you to fill them in with specific colors. I don’t really do any of that but there are some activities that I absolutely love to do when I have time. They relax me, make me happy and I feel so accomplished after I’ve finished. I think that these hobbies are a little strange put together, but individually they’re pretty normal. Thinking about these hobbies would probably give away my personality because they define exactly who I am as a person, there is a meaning behind them and why I like them so much. My hobbies are babysitting and cosmetology. Something you would never think about at the same moment but I think about them all the time.
Do you know that feeling you get when you can’t breathe and you’re gasping to catch your next breath but you just can’t, and your chest feels as if somebody has just lit it on fire, and your throat feels as dry as a desert in the middle of summer? But then you hear that beep, that beep that gives you the motivation to keep going but also brings back memories of all the years past that you tried but never made it past 22? I absolutely despise that feeling! Sports and physical activity have never been into me, so I was never into them. Pretty in pink was what you would think of me if you knew me when I was a kid. My dad tried to get me to be into soccer but that didn’t work because I could never even touch the soccer ball much less score a goal. I tried to reach my full potential but it never went further than being the kid they turned to if someone was gone. Even at this young age I could tell that I wasn’t the athletic child that my dad hoped I would become. Lucky for him he had three girls and one of them was bound to have the talent he once had. But to his and my realization it definitely wasn’t me. I knew that he was disappointed and he tried to get me to be in other sports but I think you know what happened next. After all the failed attempts he gave up and moved on to the next. I was left wondering what my talent was, from such a young I knew I loved helping people but I also loved wearing dresses and stealing my mom’s cherry lipstick. But what did that mean?
When I was a kid I would watch my older sister and her friends put on makeup. That fascinated me but it also made think about how different they looked before and after the makeup. They did not look like themselves anymore, they looked older and more mature. I told myself and my sister that I would never wear makeup because, at the time, I thought that wearing makeup was trying to alter who you were inside but also outside. As years passed and my next sister turned 15, I realized that she too began to wear makeup. I couldn’t help but think that they were not happy with the genes they got. But as I grew older and began to compare myself to other girls that were my age. I began to look at myself differently, I knew that they had done it to make themselves feel better. Society tells us that we need to look a certain way to fit the criteria of being beautiful. The idea is a hard thing to cope with especially for teenage girls who are trying to figure out who they want to be. Makeup is a way of expressing who we are or a way to experiment with who we want to be. Not everyone likes makeup and that’s okay because they probably already know who they are. Others are just afraid that they might be doing something wrong or they don’t think they have what it takes to pull it off. I like doing other people’s makeup because I can instantly give them some self-confidence, something that they didn’t have before. Although some argue that girls wear makeup to impress the other gender. I think we do it for our own pleasure, to make ourselves feel better about who we are. Doing my makeup relaxes me and it’s one of the few things I have total control of. When I do my makeup in the morning it helps clear my mind and it’s just something I look forward to each day.
Babysitting is equally as important to me maybe even a little more important to me as cosmetology. Coming from a big family with lots of aunts and uncles there is no denying that I have a lot of cousins. My aunts and uncles work hard to support their children sometimes they’re stuck having to go to work afternoons and weekend so they have no choice but to call me to ask for a hand with her kids. I can never say no to them because I know how hard they work also because I have very fond memories of them taking care of me when I was a kid. I used to throw shoes at their rooms in the morning so they would get up and pay attention to me I was a naughty kid who craved everyone’s attention. But even as an annoying kid, I knew they would hurt so much if anything happened to me. I have that same love for their kids and any child that I have ever had the chance to meet. It maybe how I was raised or maybe their unconditional love towards me that influenced me, but taking care of kids just makes me so happy. This semester I took preschool, a class where high school students get to experience what it’s like to be a preschool teacher. Tuesday of this upcoming week is their graduation and I can’t even start to express how sad and proud I am of all those little kids even the troublemakers. Most of them can’t even remember my name and it’s hard to understand how we’ve only been together a couple months but I have such a strong connection with all of them. Every single week for the past four months I looked forward to them coming in, they say the funniest things and act on everything but something about that makes me smile. Kids just don’t care what they look like, much less think about what they say and it’s so amusing to me that they have no filter. I want adults and teenagers to look through children’s eyes because they don’t care what you like, or where you come from, they only care that you play with them and are nice to them. If you love a child they will absolutely love you back, and like I’ve said before they might not remember your name but they will remember how you made them feel.
My nature would not be what it is without these hobbies they inspire me and help me to become what I want to be. That is the meaning behind my hobbies, I care for people but I also want to care for myself and I know now that. That is exactly what my purpose is when I am carrying out these hobbies. Cosmetology and babysitting are not that different in the sense that they both help people. They might not help in the same way but nevertheless they help. I definitely think that my biggest goal in life is to help others and I only started realizing that now because all I ever do and think about is helping. Helping to improve self-esteem or helping make someone’s life easier. It’ll probably be easier for me to help others once I’ve finally accomplished my search for my own identity. But these hobbies are helping to shape my life and they are also helping me on the path I want to be on for the remainder of my life.